Part Two

Maternal Time... (during IVF)
Alienated from the maternal mainstream
Planning to be a mother, but maybe only an “Other”
Taking time, time, so much time
Months, mostly years for some
A multitude of appointments
Seeing one, seeing another, through the conveyor
Tests, scans, x-rays
How does one become a mother, not an Other?
Drugs are prescribed
Administered every morning
Needle in, needle out
Must get on, need to get on,
Got a life to live, whilst making this one
No one knows you do it
It’s your secret,
Don’t do it in public,
Find a time
To yourself
Inject slowly
Take the tablets
Three times a day
Alarm goes off
Take the next one, and the next one, and the next
What about the big one – after the meal
Don’t forget
Pessaries in – 2 or 3?
Constant interruptions into your day
A reminder of your necessary journey
Ever hopeful, every step of the way
More appointments
Missing work
No biggie, catch up later
I’ve got more important things to do
Take some time off,
Put your feet up, yes do,
So the blood goes to the right places, the reproductive places
Relax, what are you worried about?
You’re on their time now
Following the schedule
Wait for the right point in your cycle
Slow it down, then start it up
Forget the years before
This one may end differently
If it doesn’t work
Just start again
But give yourself some recovery time in between
To get your body back to ‘normal’
Maybe you’ll get there
Maybe you won’t
How long will you give it?
Your clock’s ticking.